MUMBAI: Blink-182 drummer Travis Barker has revealed his journey of self-discovery including his battle with depression after a 2008 plane crash.The 39-year-old, who is currently dating singer Rita Ora, recalled his dark days in 2004, when he was facing drug addiction.

Barker got candid about his past in an interview with Billboard to promote his memoir 'Can I Say'.

"I was so addicted to Oxycodone, and I had a security that would actually sleep during the day and then stay up at night to make sure I was breathing. That was pretty pathetic," Barker said.

"I had this moment when I got to Europe for that tour where I really identified myself as a dumpster. And I was not proud. I was scared. I had to call (Blink-182 member) Mark (Hoppus) and say, 'Hey, man. I'm like borderline suicidal. I'm going crazy. I need to go home,'" he added.

Barker also talked about his struggle with survivor's guilt after the plane accident.

"I was on all these crazy crazy bipolar drugs too cause I was suicidal in the hospital, masking everything from the pain of thinking, 'Are my friends dead? Do you have to amputate my foot?' I was completely done," he remembered.

He credited his children for helping him get through the depression.

"They were all I hung out with, especially afterwards. I was a little cuckoo for a minute too. I did not leave the house. I was afraid if I left the house something would fall out of the sky and hit me. I was just waiting for some ill stuft to happen all the time. So I just wanted to stay cooped up in the house with them until I got to my healthy state," he said.